Monday, 29 September 2014

Weekly Inspiration: Hope

 

 

Colossians 1:27 (KJV)

27 To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory:


Its never easy, but Christ is my hope.
I was overwhelmed with the amount of messages I have received from subscribers and followers when I shared my most saddening news last week. Like in most situations, a lot of people will have different views, and that's exactly what I mentioned in my video. Some may say I am a fool for sharing my pregnancy, some may sympathise, some may pray for me to get strength. But I just want you to recognise the Glory of God in ALL things. Despite people's opinions on how foolish I was as an 'African' or a 'Christian' for sharing my pregnancy online, Gods glory shall and will be seen out of all of this. So how has God's Glory manifested in the situation? Well in ALL things the Bible said, we give thanks. When I lost the twins.... I asked questions because I was confused, then I repented for asking questions, and SINCE then I have given thanks. My testimony has been shared to thousands.... and the majority of responses I got is how much of an inspiration I am because of this. I had to ask God again, ME? An inspiration? God said yes, but of course.... the testimony you shared has made people see that I am the God of your life! I am a God that never fails! Despite your mourning, you have showed that you are moving on to greater and brighter things that I have got prepared for you. Honestly, I promise you (reader), my intentions of making that video sharing my loss was to finish off what I started, I felt people were anticipating updates in regards to my pregnancy, so I only thought it was normal for me to come back on camera and tell what had happened. I decided to move on long ago, I decided to put makeup on do my hair and crack a slight smile because it was only 'the right thing' to do. Little did I know this caused a positive reaction to many and they were uplifted. God is wonderful, He has taken the glory for this situation and I am most happy with it. I had numerous of emails saying how much my strength has helped them overcome their current situations. A few emails told me they were depressed and my video has given them hope. I had several video requests on how to overcome tragic situations and put my hope in Christ.

The message of hope is this weeks topic, because despite the little strength I displayed on my video, I am still deeply hurt. But my hope is Christ. Sometimes I just want to end it all... my career, my YouTube channel, and even my life at times, but Christ is my hope. When I think of the cross, when I think of what Christ done for me, the fear of God arises in me and I just have to look forward to my future. I just cannot bring myself to the point of ending it all because I feel guilty for wanting to waste all of these amazing gifts God has given me. 
When God tells me how much of an inspiration I am, I can't end it all, I am going to keep on going because of Christ. What will I gain from ending it all? It will pull me back to square one... Christ did not give up, He had the opportunity to, but He didn't, so why should I? Why should you? We have so much to live for, life is for living- and despite my battles I am going to keep on living and breathing until Jesus decides to pull me home. Honestly, I cried so bitterly when people started to make their assumptions about me announcing my pregnancy... claiming the devil is on the internet and xyz and me uploading it, some red eye people online are watching and they could have plot to destroy the pregnancy. I was told I am not wise, I lack knowledge as an African Christian and that the devil used the internet to destroy my pregnancy. Once thing we need to remember is Satan, is not after Africans... or whites, or blacks, or whatever, he is after Christians! That has always been his mission. If I was encouraged to be more prayerful, and stay in the Word to combat the wiles of the devil it would have made more sense than for me to hide and not show my face this whole pregnancy. What difference would it have made if I was spotted at a supermarket, event or shopping mall with my pregnancy bump? Seriously, some people made me feel like I was a murderer, as if I caused the twins death. I was called foolish and that I lack wisdom, for sharing news which I was excited about. I allowed such comments honestly to get the best of me that this entire weekend I lost it again... all the strength I gained, my vision everything just went blank. I was pulled steps backwards. But thank God for Christ. I cried this entire weekend because of these comments and views, but this morning I woke up, and said Christ is my strength and my hope, and despite what people's views are, my testimony, my story, my loss, will be used for the Glory of His name.
In Genesis, Joseph shared his dream to his brothers, it almost cost him his life, but in fact him sharing his dream helped him to become what God wanted him to become! I shared with the world my blessing and my dream, my babies died, but I didn't! And I won't! Whilst my beautiful babies are spending eternity in heaven, I carry their legacy and their testimony and it would be used for Gods perfect glory!

Sunday, 28 September 2014

Daily Look: Orange and Gold



Happy Sunday! I posted this look onto instagram on Friday if you caught it, some of you were asking for a tutorial, I unfortunately did not record it however, hopefully this product list would help. I saw a makeup post on instagram which inspired this look, unfortunately it didn't come out exactly like hers because of her skin shade (she was white) and her eye shape was much bigger, however my version turned out ok! I wanted to go for a dark vampy look initially hence the purple lippy... but then decided to change it up and get a bit brighter to make it more classy. Orange indeed is the new black! (or purple! lol!) 



Purple Lippy: Rimmel London (Kate) in '04'

Products Used:
 
Face:
Base: MAC Prep and Prime
Eyebrows: Sleeks Brown Pencil
Concealer: LA Girl Pro Concealer- Toffee  and MAC Select Moisture Cover in NW45
Foundation: Mary Kay Time Wise medium coverage Foundation in Bronze 7
Highlight Setting Powder: Ben Nye 'Topaz' and Black Up Loose powder in no.2
Powder: Studio Fix Powder in NW50
 
Eyes:
Base: Urban Decay Eye Primer Potion
Brow Highlight: Benefit Eyeshadow in Soft Shoulder
Transition colours: NW50 Studio Fix Powder by MAC and MAC Orange eyeshadow
Crease: MAC- Carbon eyeshadow
Mobile Eyelid: Barry M Dazzle Dust in dd100
Eyeliner: Benefit Kohl Liner in Onyx (discontinued) but try MACs Feline or Smoulder as alternative
Mascara: Rimmel London Max Bold Curves
Lashes: Ardell '113' Lashes
Liquid Liner- Stargazer Black Liner

Cheeks:
Blush: BlackUp Cosmetics no.6 Blush
Shimmer Highlight: Sleeks Contour Kit (gold highlight)
Contour: Ben Nye 'Ebony' Translucent powder
 
Lips:
Liner: MAC Cork
Colour: MAC Morange 
 





Friday, 26 September 2014

Makeup Tutorial: An Everyday Kind Of Look


 

Sometimes simple looks like this get us noticed! Just a simple brown smokey eye and a gold tear duct with nude lips is super easy and quick to do.
The tutorial is easy to follow also with products which are easy to get hold of. I used just one palette to create the entire eyeshadow look

Products Used:
Face:
Base: MAC Prep and Prime
Eyebrows: Sleeks Brown Pencil
Concealer: LA Girl Pro Concealer- Toffee  and MAC Select Moisture Cover in NW45
Foundation: MAC MatchMaster in 9.0
Highlight Setting Powder: Ben Nye 'Topaz' 
 
Eyes:
Base: Urban Decay Eye Primer Potion
Brow Highlight, Eyelid and Tear Duct: Wet N Wild- Vanity Palette
Transition colour: NW50 Studio Fix Powder by MAC
Eyeliner: Benefit Kohl Liner in Onyx (discontinued) but try MACs Feline or Smoulder as alternative
Mascara: Rimmel London Max Bold Curves
Lashes: Ardell '113' Lashes
Liquid Liner- Stargazer Black Liner 
 
Cheeks:
Blush: Raizin by MAC
 
Lips:
Liner: MAC Soar
Colour: MAC Touch






Wednesday, 24 September 2014

Emmanuels 5th Birthday!





Grandma getting Emmanuel ready for his party

Birthday cake!


Emmanuel Sitting down like the king that he is
Like any mother, the most thing to look excited for is an additional year added to the life of your child. Even if that child is 20 or 30 or 40, its a mothers delight to see another year added to the life of the child.
Emmanuel turned 5 last week and boy did we celebrate. This was, an never is just any birthday to me each time a year is added onto his life is another year of me remembering the miracle that God done in my life. I lost twins a month ago, they will forever be in my heart. And when it happened, my attention was brought back to Emmanuel and his survival through birth. He is an over comer.  Emmanuel is a beautiful soul, anyone who meets him, loves him, despite his set backs with his health. He is thriving through daily and it has shocked me. He is such a champion a true fighter and I admire him for that.
His birthday was so lovely, I am so thankful and didn't expected my mum and sister to plan a little party for him with his cousins. He ate so much and had a fabulous time, and then on Sunday he had another party with the children at church, I didn't attend but my mum said it was awesome! 
I am so grateful for this day! Thank you so much to my family for putting this together.










Tuesday, 23 September 2014

How To: Conceal Deep Set (Under) Eyes





So, I guess with age and lack of sleep my lines under my eyes are getting even deeper... unless they find a cure or remedy to permanently fix this, concealer and setting powder is going to have to be the trick for me!
The under eye highlight method has become increasingly popular in the beauty world, here is a method I have been doing to fill in my deeply set under eye area.
Please watch the video here:




Products Used:
Skin:
Cleanser: Bioderma
Moisturiser: Body Shop Daily Moisturiser
Base: Benefits' PoreFessional



(Eye products would be up later as I am uploading that tutorial later this week)

Face:
Foundation: Mary Kay Time wise in Bronze 7
Concealer 1: Select Moisture Cover- NW45
Concealer 2: La Girl Pro Concealer in Almond and Toast
Highlight Setting Powder: Ben Nye 'Topaz' and BlackUp Paris Loose Powder in no.2
Powder: Studio Fix Powder in NW50



Cheeks
Blush: Sleeks- Sahara
Lips:
Colour: MAC Touch


Monday, 22 September 2014

Weekly Inspiration: Moving On

Isaiah 43:18-19King James Version (KJV)

 Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old.
 Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.


Last week I shared with you the topic of 'Patience' on my weekly inspirational blog post. I want to carry on from that topic to this week by talking about moving on. 'Moving On' is a key part to having patience. The reason that is, is while you are having 'patience' for something that you have been praying for, and something your heart has been longing for, you should just 'move on'. My point is, don't dwell there, what will you gain from staying stagnent in the exact spot, its not healthy for you, your focus would be anticipating the arrival on what you have been praying for and it sometimes prolongs the expectant due date of this arrival. Whilst you are waiting, move on, occupy yourself, dwell on other things, help someone else achieve their dreams, encourage someone, encourage yourself! I am not saying forget about it, because that is impossible, what I am saying is, don't punish yourself, there is an appointed time for everything, you are already blessed, the manifestation of that blessing will appear once you focus on building your strength, your abilities and just become a better you, before you know it, your blessing comes. 

Yesterday, I put out a video about my pregnancy ending. This was the hardest thing I could do. I did not elaborate on how I felt, although it was obvious that I went through the most tragic experience of my life. During the time it all happened, I was deeply bruised, I found it hard to breathe. I felt so much pain. The emotional pain in my heart, the mental pain in my mind asking myself all sorts of questions, the physical pain in my lower abdomen from the impact of the birth. However, within a week, there was an urge for me to actually just get up and move on. I looked at my life and saw I have SO much to live for- career, health, happiness, love. I just said to myself, I want to do this, and that, and this and that! All of sudden, I just want to run and be free. I want to be the best person I can be. In the past I have battled severe depression, and I mean absolutely felt as if there was no hope. By Gods grace, I overcame that dark chapter. I understand the importance of not rushing and taking my time. But I need to make other plans to move on otherwise I will be drawn right back to that state of depression. 
Moving on, is the best step you can do once you have encountered a loss or a failure. Do not dwell there.... don't you realise you still have the breath in your lungs to breathe. Pick up yourself and carry on, love and cherish the life God has given you. Plan bold steps into greatness. Don't mope around beating yourself up, whatever happens is an experience to teach you a lesson and strengthen you so that you in turn can be a blessing to others. This life, is to be lived! I don't know how long it can take you to move on from your situation, it may take some quicker than others, don't rush, but definitely have it in mind that YOU CANT DWELL THERE FOREVER! Give yourself a chance to heal, but staying in that area for long periods only dims the light and it will get to the point where you cannot see at all.


Friday, 19 September 2014

Makeup Look | Lucky Green Eyes and Peach Lips


Hello its FRIDAY! Which means another video another blog post! How are you liking my consistency lately? Pat on my back! 

This look wasn't necessarily inspired by anything particularly however it definitely has the feel of the autumn season with the leafy green and orange tones in mind. 
Products Used:
Face:
Base: Benefits' PoreFessional
Eyebrows: Sleeks Brown Pencil
Concealer: LA Girl Pro Concealer- Toffee  and MAC Select Moisture Cover in NW45
Foundation: Illamasqua Skin Base Foundation in No17
Highlight Setting Powder: Ben Nye 'Topaz'
Eyes:
Base: Urban Decay Eye Primer Potion
Transition Shade: 'Dark Brown' from BH Cosmetics 26 Color Neutral Eyeshadow & Blush Palette and also Wet N Wild- Vanity Palette 'Dark Brown' Shade
Lid Base: NYX Jumbo Pencil in Milk
Lid: MAC- Lucky Green Eyeshadow
Crease: MAC- Orange Eyeshadow
Eyeliner: Benefit Kohl Liner in Onyx (discontinued) but try MACs Feline or Smoulder as alternative
Mascara: Rimmel London Max Bold Curves
Lashes: Ardell '105' Lashes
Liquid Liner- Stargazer Black Liner
Cheeks:
Blush: Sleeks- Sahara
Lips:
Liner: MAC Soar
Colour: MAC Touch
Gloss: Zaron Cosmetics '24 Karat'